Thursday, June 17, 2010

Personal Challenge

In recent weeks, I have been lamenting the fact that I weigh (as of a few minutes ago to be exact) about twice what I did when I graduated high school.  And yet I have continued to not really eat properly.

We are considering going gluten free for numerous reasons, and doing so will end up forcing me to look more closely at what I am eating, buying and making because I don’t want to mess up the whole shebang.  We’re not starting right away (I have a ton of stuff I need to use before we can fully cross-over because I can’t justify chucking all of my flour right now)

So when that occurs, I will be taking a much closer look at changing my dietary habits.  In the MEANTIME, I need to look at my (lack of) activity habits and change them.  I have been known to start a exercise “program” and drop it within a few weeks.  I am hoping to change that.

Many people do it the opposite way around, and look at their diet before exercise, figuring exercise will be the easier one since it is often just a matter of adding something into the day, not completely overhauling a major part of life.  I have a very specific reason for doing it the opposite way around.

I was anorexic in high school.  At my lowest, I weighed about 105 pounds, and I LOOKED sick.  My parents told me, a few friends told me, but I didn’t see it.  It wasn’t until I had put on a few pounds after graduating that I looked at an old picture of myself and realized just HOW thin I was.  I am 5’7”(ish) and 105 pounds is NOT healthy for me.  I have lapsed a few times when looking into changing my diet, and cut myself down to one small meal a day and saw results (of course!).

So in order to stop myself from doing that again, I have got to prove to myself that that is NOT the only way I am able to lose weight, and the way to do that is by starting with exercise first.  I’m not expecting major results, but if I can tone some of what I’ve got, and lose a couple pounds in the process, I think it will be effective in showing my inner skinny person that I can approach her size BETTER through exercise and proper diet than using previous methods.

So my goal this coming week is to get myself exercising for at least 10 minutes a day.  Whether it be walking, WiiFit, exercise videos…. whatever.  Just exercising for 10 minutes a day.  EVERY day.

I have GOT to do this healthily.  For Thing 1 and Thing 2 (especially Thing 2 since he’s still nursing!), for my husband, and for mySELF.


~ Denise ~ said...

Woohoooo!!! Congratulations for taking the "plunge"! I know you can do this. I have every confidence in you.

I must admit that reading your post brought back a flood of memories for me...I too was anorexic back in high school. Although that seems to go hand-in-hand (to a degree) with ballet, which I was heavily involved in and was studying to become professional at the time. I was hospitalized twice for it, in fact. Anyhooo...I find that my body responds really well to exercise, too. Of course, it responds to a healthy diet too but I find that if exercise is a priority, the eating takes care of itself. (Who wants to ruin all that effort with a cheeseburger, you know?)

Again, congratulations and I can't wait to read your updates! :)

Matt Sullivan said...


AWESOME JOB, Girl! You rock! I will be cheering you on! You posted before I did. I actually bought an elliptical machine on craiglist today! YES! I can't wait to be less of me!

Matt Sullivan

Kelly said...

Your post was inspiring. I'll be praying for you this upcoming week that God would give you the strength. If you stop by my blog ( my best friend is listed in my blogs (fosteringmyfamily) and she has been doing a raw food diet as well as a Paleo diet. The changed their entire family's lifestyle to help them get rid of some physical ailments. I'm going to be posting my journey soon too.