In recent weeks, I have been lamenting the fact that I weigh (as of a few minutes ago to be exact) about twice what I did when I graduated high school. And yet I have continued to not really eat properly.
We are considering going gluten free for numerous reasons, and doing so will end up forcing me to look more closely at what I am eating, buying and making because I don’t want to mess up the whole shebang. We’re not starting right away (I have a ton of stuff I need to use before we can fully cross-over because I can’t justify chucking all of my flour right now)
So when that occurs, I will be taking a much closer look at changing my dietary habits. In the MEANTIME, I need to look at my (lack of) activity habits and change them. I have been known to start a exercise “program” and drop it within a few weeks. I am hoping to change that.
Many people do it the opposite way around, and look at their diet before exercise, figuring exercise will be the easier one since it is often just a matter of adding something into the day, not completely overhauling a major part of life. I have a very specific reason for doing it the opposite way around.
I was anorexic in high school. At my lowest, I weighed about 105 pounds, and I LOOKED sick. My parents told me, a few friends told me, but I didn’t see it. It wasn’t until I had put on a few pounds after graduating that I looked at an old picture of myself and realized just HOW thin I was. I am 5’7”(ish) and 105 pounds is NOT healthy for me. I have lapsed a few times when looking into changing my diet, and cut myself down to one small meal a day and saw results (of course!).
So in order to stop myself from doing that again, I have got to prove to myself that that is NOT the only way I am able to lose weight, and the way to do that is by starting with exercise first. I’m not expecting major results, but if I can tone some of what I’ve got, and lose a couple pounds in the process, I think it will be effective in showing my inner skinny person that I can approach her size BETTER through exercise and proper diet than using previous methods.
So my goal this coming week is to get myself exercising for at least 10 minutes a day. Whether it be walking, WiiFit, exercise videos…. whatever. Just exercising for 10 minutes a day. EVERY day.
I have GOT to do this healthily. For Thing 1 and Thing 2 (especially Thing 2 since he’s still nursing!), for my husband, and for mySELF.